I desire to worship God.
That statement can’t be overemphasized, BUT…
There always seems to be a “but” – doesn’t there? Sometimes I get distracted with the everyday busyness of life, sometimes I allow myself to get distracted by my own goals, plans, or desires. However, today I want to talk about my struggle to worship God when when I just feel completely overwhelmed by His presence.
I know this might seem odd to some, but there are times when I just feel I have nothing good enough to bring to God. It seems like every way I know how to praise God just doesn’t seem to be enough, like I am not enough.
The prophet Micah found himself in a similar circumstance. In Micah 6, God is reminding Israel that He (God) has been faithful to them. That He has delivered them time and time again. As the prophet considers God’s faithfulness, he becomes overwhelmed by the beauty and majesty of God. How can he, a man, faithfully worship a perfect and holy God? What can he bring to his God, his King, his Savior, his great deliverer, that is of worth?
“With what shall I come before the LORD and bow down before the exalted God?” (Micah 6:6a)
Do I have anything to bring to my God? Do I have anything to offer that would be worthy of His name?
Verse 6 continues, “Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old?”
Are the standard practices of faith enough? Do I sing some songs? Hit my knees? Raise my hands? Make a special offering or sacrifice?
“Will the LORD be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of olive oil? Shall I offer my first born for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?” (Micah 6:7) What do I need to give? What must I sacrifice? What does God require of me – is it my stuff, my children, my wife, my very life? Would any of that even be enough?
This is where the prophet speaks to his need and mine, “He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you?”
“To act justly…”
God requires us to live a life of justice, treating others with fairness. To live a life where others can come to know the God whom we serve through how we treat those who are in need, or mistreated, or hurting, or who are being treated unfairly.
“…and to love mercy…”
God has shown us such great mercy. Our every breath is a testimony of His mercies which are renewed each and every morning. What if we loved mercy to such an extent that extending mercy to others was our first reaction? If we love mercy our lives would be shaped and defined by an attitude of forgiveness for all who hurt us, not just those we are closest to.
“…and walk humbly with your God.”
What if we agree with God about the the depths of the wickedness that is our sin? What if we begin to understand the depths of His love for us, the completeness of His salvation for us, and understand that His deliverance has nothing to do with us and everything to do with Him? They are based on His person, His character, His love, His mercy, His sacrifice, His grace. He has done it all – and you and I need to do nothing but simply trust in His way, His truth, His life, His way, His plan, His power, His purpose.
In these moments my worship becomes so much more real than the actions of a religious man. I connect with God as His justice become my actions, His mercy becomes my love for others, and as my steps seek to follow Him to the point that I decrease and this life I live becomes His do do with as He pleases. So that it is no longer me but Christ living in me.
That is the kind of worship God desires, that He deserves, and that is the kind of worship I want to give Him!